It's been a Monday! Running a little late, seeing kids, meeting with my boss, lunch with my ladies (added bonus), seeing more kids, getting up to the school...Ugh, it's already 2:30? Try to hurry through paperwork which is completely pointless because when it comes to special ed, it is endless! Time to pick up the kids, Chance poops as were walking out the door, Hunter won't get into the car because he's playing football, Blake wants me to chase him around the sitter's garage which did not amuse Chance that he had to wait. I get in the car and get a text from Beau to grab pops. Not possible. Both debit cards (and my ID) were in his wallet from date night and guess who used the last check and forgot to tell me. No dinero. I get home and Chance is starving, the dogs need out, they are out of water. I start feeding Chance and Blake wants juice. I tell him he has to wait and he kicks the swing, throws his toys so he goes in time out. He screams the highest pitched scream I've ever heard. "Mom! MOm! Can we have candy?" the older two chime in. At this point I'm like, "Yes! Take the damn candy and shut up!" (Ok I don't actually say it, but I am thinking it!). They go outside to play and within 10 minutes Hunter comes in hysterical because Cole hit him, Hunter's trying to slam Cole in the sliding door and once they both get in I forget Blake's still outside.
Do you ever just have an epiphany moment? I just had one as I was chewing out one boy for lying and yelling at one to knock it off (did I mention I was still nursing?) Beau was barking back at me. I asked, "Why are you so crabby?" He replies, "I feed off of you!" Hmm..... Here's my moment. I stop and think, Who the heck am I? Who is this crazy lady screaming at her kids, giving them candy to shut them up and barking at her husband? I vowed I would never be this person and that's exactly who I am!
I think every parent struggles. You can never be perfect all the time. Mom's constantly think about all the things were doing wrong and how were going to severely screw up our kids so they turn into mask murders or end up in jail for drugs or pregnant by 15, all because they had a crappy mom. And the truth of the matter is: We are humans and just like everyone else. We make mistakes, we screw up. But in the end, for the most part, our kids still love us. They forgive us. They don't see us like we see ourselves.
A friend of mine shared this video and it touched my heart! You have to check it out!
http://www.faithit.com/moms-kids-video-confession-touching/#.UnAerAXTVK4.facebook
(Cole and I made a deal btw. I stop yelling and he stops lying! Let's see how that works out)
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