I've been looking at life ALL wrong :)

So we went out to eat on Saturday night to help celebrate my good friends huge accomplishment of getting her MBA.  While standing in a circle holding hands at the end of the night it hits me.  I am looking at life all wrong!  I spend countless hours worrying about getting stuff done for my job, keeping the house clean, organizing, etc... I need to knock that off!  This...right here, right now is what I should be thinking about.  I need to put my love for others first!  I need to make time for them, support them and enjoy them!

We got many calls during our dinner that the roads were getting bad and we needed to head home.  Leaving Sioux City the roads were fine.  Once we hit Jackson they were really bad.  Huge annoying snowflakes coming down, snow packed, and icy roads that were really slowing us down!  Seriously?  Then we get a call from our friends who were two cars behind us...Come back here was the only thing they said.  We go back wondering if something happened to their car.  They jump out and Amanda says, "Look at these snowflakes!  Aren't they beautiful?"  Wait...what?  These huge snowflakes were slowing down my fun. I stop and look.  She is right!  They are HUGE and AMAZING!  We played in the snow and took pics!  I need to do this more often.  I need to stop thinking ahead as to what we will be doing next or what I have to get done.  I need to just dance in the snow!!!

We get to the bar for my friends "surprise party"....There were 2 other people there.  The roads got bad and no one could make it!  Ugh!  Her night is ruined!!!!  She deserves a big bash!  You know what?  I enjoyed that night at the bar than most other nights.  Maybe it's because I actually remember it because I couldn't drink (haha) or maybe, just maybe it was the company.  Yep.  Every person that I needed there was.  I got to sit and talk to people I don't have near enough time to talk to.  Some much needed girl time happened.  I don't need a million "acquaintances" surrounding me.  Nope.  I need a few AMAZING friends.  That's exactly what happened that night.  

Honestly, I'm not lucky!  I am blessed!  I am surrounded by so many absolutely amazing people!!!  They continuously show me what is important in life!  I want to love and support those around me.  I want to stop worrying so dang much and just stop and enjoy the now.  I want to keep those amazing friends close and realize that's all I need :)

With that said, I do HAVE to get my classes done.  2 more and I'm done.  So say a little prayer that they don't consume my life and I stay motivated enough to get it done and be done by August and then can focus on more important things...whatever that may be at the time :)

Oh The Joys Of Pregnancy!

Yay!  I'm pregnant, 10 weeks tomorrow to be exact!  What a beautiful, magical thing pregnancy is!  You are creating a miracle!!  Right now baby is the size of a grape and is working on growing it's sexual organs!  Oh the joy of being able to carry this child and nurture it until it is ready to enter this world!!!  There is nothing better!

Pshhh!!!  Are you kidding me!  My dang pants are too tight and am not ready to wear full panel maternity pants!  I'm at that awkward stage where no one dares ask if I'm pregnant because I just look like I've taken advantage of the 8 boxes of girl scout cookies I bought (which I have).  And thank you boys for the 26 lbs of baby that has now made everything a little looser....If I hear one more person say, "Wow! Your only 10 weeks?  Is it twins?" I may punch them in the face!

I spend the day like a bipolar toddler...."Yayyy!!!!!  I love my job!" to (crying in the parking lot of a catholic preschool) "I just can't do it anymore."  I have banned any videos involving weddings, babies, anyone with a disability, a cat, well pretty much anything because I will burst into tears!  Seriously? I am crying about a girl who just won state basketball because this is her first year and she got to be a part of it?  I don't even know this girl!  I have the best husband in the world!  My stupid ass husband does not understand the definition of clean the kitchen!!  Seriously?  Cleaning the kitchen is not throwing the dishes in the dishwasher!  What about the jelly crusted to the counter? Or the random crap that has been brought in, or the crumbs on the floor!!!  That is included in cleaning the kitchen!!!

As far as the pregnancy glow goes, its sweat!!!  It's waves of nausea that occur at the worst times possible.  What am I supposed to say at a home visit?  "Can I use your bathroom to puke my brains out?  That would be great!  I promise I'll clean up after myself!" Or the car sickness I get when I'm driving!  I drive over 2,000 miles a month for work.  Really baby?  Is this necessary?

So here's my story of what the little miracle has done lately.  I drive to Santee about twice a week.  On my way there the wave of nausea hits.  Ugh!  It's ok Jen, you usually don't throw up.  Take a few sips of water, you will be fine.  Oh boy.  This is a really bad one.  I'm not going to puke, I'm not going to puke.  I am one of those people that is in denial about throwing up until there is vomit filling my mouth.  Yep!  Gotta pull over, I'm going to puke!  I manage to get the car pulled over enough to open the door and empty my stomach on the shoulder of the road.  I am still buckled in and hanging out of the car suspended by the seat belt.  Good thing too or I would have fallen into the mud.  If you've ever had children you know things don't always close up as much as they should.  So not only am I puking but manage to pee my pants!  Are you kidding me??!!!! I pull it together and shut the door.  So here I sit with makeup streaming down my face.  What am I going to do? I am 40 miles away from home and am a hot mess and wet pants!!!  So what do I do?  Well, I do what any logical pregnant woman does.  I dig around the car until I find an old crusted wipe that I'm pretty sure I used for the green shoestrings my kid sneezed out the other day.  I get the black streaks under control.  I turn my heat way up and am them at my now damp pants.  I drive to the next gas station and get some powdered sugar donuts.  I don't mean the single serving sleeve you can buy.  I buy the Little Debbie bag of powdered sugar donuts.  I keep heading towards work.  Now that I have FINISHED the bag of donuts (hey! Don't judge! I just experienced some great emotional distress) and smile.  It will be ok!!! ...and in the back of my mind I think, "This better be a girl!!"