Who Am I?

When families and kiddos come around, it's easy for Mommy's to forget who they are :)  You want to know who I am?

I would eat crab legs and mint chip ice cream for every meal if I could.  I love to organize and plan!  I makes lists. When there is something that I do that's not on the list, I will write it on the list and then cross it off for pure satisfaction.  If I could professionally organize people's homes for a living I would.  Speaking of other people's homes: when it's dark out and the lights are on, I like looking in windows while driving.  I used to love the heat of the summer, but now not so much.  I do however, love swimming.  I could spend days in a pool (with my crab legs and mint chip ice cream), if my body image didn't get in the way.  I miss driving my bubble (Ford Focus) and driving it, putting $20 of gas in it that would last me a week.  My parents are the most influential people in my life (although I don't usually admit it).  What they think of my actions is so very important to me.

I love camping but hate packing and getting ready for it and I really don't like bugs!  And the things that go lurk in the night scares the crap out of me.  And speaking of things scaring the crap out of me, I hate it when Beau's not home.  I make the boys sleep with me (like they could protect me).  I sleep with my contacts in, all the lights on downstairs, doors locked and dogs on the porch so they can bark when the boogie man comes to attack.  I have to leave the hallway light on and face the door so I can describe the boogie man when the police question me.  I sleep with the phone and my cell phone next to the bed and spend most of the night worrying :)

Photography is one of my favoritist things in the world.  If people wouldn't look at me funny I would have one around my neck at all times.  Although having a smart phone makes me look less crazy.  I have a slight obsession with facebook.  Really?  Does anyone want to know that I'm sick of wiping my kids butt or that I am cleaning my kitchen?  Probably not...But it doesn't stop me from posting. 

I once wrote a book when I was in 6th grade with Julia Cunningham.  I think it had 12 chapters.  I used to love to write poetry and somewhere have a binder full of them.  I love to write, just wish I had more time and was better at it.  Scrapbooking used to be one of my favorite pastimes.  I have found dragging out all the scrapbooking materials to have the boys pull it off the table and drag all the stickers and pieces around the house isn't worth it.  I'll start Hunter and Blake's baby book when they graduate :)

When I sleep I have to have a sheet or blanket covering all of my body up to my neck.  And the heavier the blanket the better. Just like a compression vest.  I once read a book where this girl was set up for murder and woke up with a gun in her hand.  So I make sure that my hands are under the covers, then that won't happen.  I have to look in other people's showers when I go to the bathroom to make sure no one is hiding in there.

I love cooking and trying new recipes.  And if it has onions in it, even better.  Not because I like the taste of onions but I like the way they make my fingers smell. I eat half the batter before it gets in the oven on pretty much everything.  I even like the canned crescent rolls before they're cooked.  I don't put away as I go, but wait until the end which drives Beau and my Mom nuts.

I only 100% trust 3 people in my life.  My mom, my dad and Beau.  Beau is not only my husband but my best friend.  He loves me for all of my crazies :)  I have a very hard time trusting that peoples intentions are good.  However, I tell people too much about me and usually get hurt because of it.  My theme song right now is "Better Than I Used to Be".

If I love you, I would do anything for you.  I would put whatever aside in my life to help you out in yours.  I loved growing up an only child.  Are you kidding me?  I got all the attention, all the gifts and I had to share with NO ONE.  Now, I love being the oldest of 6 siblings.  My siblings are all amazing in their own way, and a pain in the ass.

Everyone talks crap about everyone else, even if they are best friends.  You can't like EVERYTHING about someone.  You can't agree with anyone 100%.  There's always a few things that drives you bonkers.  You just have to decide if those few things are worth the rest.  I would rather have guy friends than lady friends.  They cause way too much drama and judge much more than guys.  (I do love those few girlies I consider friends).

I can't stand people from Hartington who think they are "better" and deserve more just because they are "Cedar" folk!  This is one reason my kids don't go there.  I think the public school has just as good of an education.  And as far as teaching them better morals, not true.  I have seem some "Cedar" high school students be VERY rude to the lady working at the gas station.

Most days I love who I am.  I love being a wife and Mommy.  I love being a farm girl with 6 horses (that I love but scare the heck out of me) and 2 dogs that I miss being inside.  I love my job and that I am able to touch so many lives.  My church and the people in it is amazing.  I have the best family in the world :)

I can be crazy jealous, annoying.  I can talk to much and definitely don't know when to shut up.  I can be lazy and just want to sleep all day.  I sometimes expect too much from people.  I love to have fun!  That's Who I am.