Once we get through.......

This has been the common phrase coming out of my mouth since the beginning of the month!

Once we get through all three kids having strep throat...
Once we get through pink eye.....
Once we get through me totalling my car....
Once we get through buying a new car....
Once we get through Blake having H1N1...
Once we get through Blake getting tubes.....
Once I get through these meetings...
Once we get through my computer dying....
Once we get through this pre-K year with Cole....
Once I get through editing Prom pics.....

I have been using this excuse for being a crabby, non-attentive, exhausted wife and Mommy for 2 months!  And has it helped?  NO!

I have come to the conclusion:  Once we get through "said problem", there will be another obstacle!  There will always be obstacles, Always things to get through and deal with.  Always ways to show others & yourself your strength. 

Life is tough!  It's ALWAYS changing!  I'm NOT in control.  I suppose it's my OCD kicking in.  OCD you ask?  Come on!  If you know me you know that I like to be in control.  I make lots and lots of lists, and if I do something that's not on the list, well I put it on the list and cross it off.  Yep, I'm that girl!  I feel like I need to be in control at all times.  Work and my life is stressful.  And when I can't control things in my life-I do control the things I can.  I rearrange furniture, or reorganize my music files, or dye my hair, or chop it off.  I NEED to feel in control!

But isn't that funny?  I am not the one in control.  I can put as much effort and energy into trying, and it's just not going to work.  It's something I constantly have to remind myself of.  I have been swallowed by stress and sooo much stuff.  I can't go back and not stress, I can't go back and be nicer to my family, but I can work on it. 

I CAN say no.  If it's going to be too much, I MUST say no!  And I am not in control and I need to trust that's it's all happening exactly the way it's supposed to.

I think I need to wear flip flops more so I can see my tattoo more :)

Hope everyone has a great week!  Look for another blog coming soon about our FUN-FRIEND-FAMILY-FRIDAY!